Day 39: Motivated Slacker...

The not so crafty loser checking in today! What I mean is that I'm still losing (albeit sloooooowly), but I'm definitely not crafting (well, not as much as I should be, anyway) but the biggest thing I'm not doing is BLOGGING! Ugh...

A little background...my department at work was without a manager for about two and a half years which is almost pretty much the same amount of time that I've been working here. So when we got a new manager last week, well...adjustments are needing to be made on my part!!! *LOL* Unfortunately, I can't just get on and blog whenever I feel like it anymore because his office (and the WINDOW to his office) happens to be right BEHIND me. *wrinkle face* Ew. So Catherine is on her best behaviour health-wise and work-wise! Although if you ask me, I ALWAYS have all my work done no matter what else I'm doing! Hahahaha...anywho, ENOUGH OF THAT! Let's get to the healthy weight part!


So due to my slackerly ways, I haven't posted in a while, but it doesn't mean that I've fallen off the wagon completely. Weekends are still my utter nemesis. Bart and I went away last weekend and OMG, let me just say...*making huge bloated face* 'Nuff said...I walked in to the eating area telling Bart that I would just give him my rice if there was rice or carbs with my food and I turn around and come face to face with a bowl - a FREAKIN' BOWL for crying out loud - of dinner rolls. It was like...a MOUND of dinner rolls...all different colours...white, whole wheat, pumpernickel...just STARING at me. I could hear their little carby voices calling out to me, "Catherine! Catherine!" And I gravitated towards them thinking, "Yes my little darlings, I hear you!" Bart tried to be the buffer between the situation and he offered to half one with me. So a little compromise there...a little give and take action. Kind of like, okay, don't deprive yourself and be MISERABLE the whole weekend...but here, have a little. So I gratefully took him up on his offer and had my little half of the dinner roll with my dinner (which I haven't EVEN gotten started on!) So there I am with my little eeeeensy weeeeensy teeny tiny half of dinner roll, taking little teeeeeny tiny little bites to make it last longer and Bart pushes his chair back to excuse himself to the bathroom. I nod all politely and smile at him adoringly with my little piece of bread in my dainty little fingers. As soon as buddy rounded out the door, that insignificant piece of bread was shoved in my mouth and I swear I was outta my chair and over to that bread bowl in two seconds flat. Donovan Bailey has NOTHIN' on ME! He would have been a speck of DUST in my rearview mirror, that's how fast I was. From there, it was all just pretty much downhill my friends. I should have known it was coming too...


I should have KNOWN when I was sitting at work feeling all smug and proud of myself when my friend Tammy was complaining about how HUNGRY she was. I should have SEEN it coming when on the Friday before we left for the weekend, Tammy and I spent the WHOLE afternoon talking about different kinds of breads. Ugh. I didn't see it...not even when I was describing to her the bread from Del Dente's....the one's that come freshly baked into these cute little flower pots and the dough had risen over top of the pot so it looked like a delicious muffin with a soft, hot, fluffy centre. And I even described how they give you three different kinds of butter to put on the bread and that if you finish your little flower pot of bread, they'll only just bring you another one, ALSO fresh out of the oven. *sighs* I didn't see it coming...smug little me thought I had it aaall under control. You know, if it had been one measly dinner roll sitting there, I could have ignored it. It's carby voice wouldn't have called out so loudly, it's call wouldn't even have reached my ears. Damn that mound of delicious dinner rolls. Since I had already fallen off the wagon - I guess you could say I ran to the edge of the wagon and dove off head-first to more accurately describe it - I figured that the weekend was already done for and it was a free for all. Chocolate cake? Oh yeah, I ate it! Mashed potatoes, I poured gravy on it! I remember them having a salad bar....I wonder how that was......................


Oh....maybe I shouldn't exercise my skill at detail so much either....I'm having a moment.

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Okay, moment has passed. I've got control of myself again.


So needless to say, Sunday weigh-in was NOT good. Monday weigh-in was WORSE! I had gone into the weekend at a wonderful 166.8 pounds (okay, so it's really 167) and when I stood on that scale Monday morning, it was telling me such profane, disgusting numbers. Even stepping on and off the scale didn't help. Leaning sideways didn't help. Dropping the kids off didn't help. Pressing my palm down on the counter a little bit did, but who was I fooling? Not the FAT CELLS hanging out and throwing a weekend after party in my ass! It said *deep breath* 169.4. That's like, two pounds. Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! Curse you wheat fairies! And you stupid cows too....for making milk than can turn into delicious butter.


*swallows*


Okay. So the weekend is over. What's done is done. What's eaten is eaten and what kids have been dropped off at the pool have been dropped off. Stressing about it, being mean to myself and doing balancing acts on the scale doesn't help. So as soon as the weekend was over (we left the evil place of delicious food at 3 pm) it was back.to.BUSINESS. Dinner that night was so unsatisfying.


Monday was HARD. My body felt heavy and I was dragging. I got up and dragged myself around, collecting all my work-out stuff and prepared to hate Shaun T. Once I started getting going it got a little bit easier, but jumping around still made me feel heavy. I did my regular walks during break time and went back to my usual breakfast, snack, lunch foods. Went online and double-checked my local gym schedule and found out there was a cardio kickboxing class that night and I forced myself to go.

Anywho, on Tuesday I finally figured out what the problem was with all the pain in my legs. I was doing some resistance training and my feet were killing me! I mean, resistance training? All I was doing was standing on a rubber band and pulling, my feet shouldn't be hurting! I took off my running shoes and finished the rest of the exercise and it was SO much better! So after work, off to SportChek for shoes! I think I irritated the living daylights out of the guy working because I was trying almost every single pair of shoes on except for the ones he was suggesting. If he was smart, he would have picked up on the fact that I was getting the pretty, pink coloured shoes instead of suggesting ugly black and gray ones! *LOL* All kidding aside, pretty shoes have now moved down my list of shoe priorities! I ended up getting a nice white and purple (still pretty though!) pair of Asics and hallelujah what. a. difference! As soon as I put them on, I knew they were already so much better than my cheap $30.00 Nike's from the kid's section! I guess my foot is a little bit flatter than the shoes that I was wearing were made, so I was getting a lot of tension in my arches and all along the bottoms of my feet and in turn, my legs were trying to compensate for that and in the end, my calves and my shins would be ACHING after a simple walk, let alone a workout! When I first started, I was just writing the pain off because I was just starting out, but the more that it lasted, the worse it was getting! So *thumbs up* for Asics, or whatever brand shoe that your feet feel good in, not just LOOK good in!

Oh! Speaking of things I've bought...*LOL* I got the Turbo Jam series the other day! I am *LOVING* workout DVDs! Who woulda thunk it, huh? After Hip Hop Abs have been sitting on my shelf gathering dust since my last "get fit" stage. But WOW! I've practically burned a hole in Hip Hop Abs and I've also acquired a belly dancing DVD (which is flippin' HARD! and I am SO not sexy looking in it at all) and for fun, Carmen Electra's aerobic striptease. I've upped my exercises to mornings AND afternoons. So in the morning, I'll do either the Wii Active or a cardio DVD and in the evenings I'll take a cardio class at the gym. I'm telling you, if I don't get into that dress next week, I have no idea what I'm going to do!

Okay, where was I? Oh right, Turbo Jam! I only did the introductory workout this morning and I was SWEATING! Plus I was a little uncoordinated so hopefully when I get the hang of the moves, I'll be able to burn more off...I ended up going out at lunch today to buy some weighted gloves to give my punches and jabs a little extra oomph! I think I should just call myself the Shopping Loser because all I seem to be doing is buying stuff! *LOL* But so far, everything I've gotten for the weight-loss movement I'm on has been AWESOME (okay, with the exception of the trampoline because I haven't been on it in a while!) but if you HAAAAVE to get something, my number one suggestion would DEFINITELY be a heart monitor! I have no idea how well I'd be doing on my diet without this, but WITH it, I feel like it really keeps me on track! I use it mainly for the calorie counter and I use it when I'm exercising. I don't like going on treadmills or ellipticals so I never get an exercise where a machine tells me how much I'm burning, so I use my Mio heart rate monitor instead. The big bonus of it is that it seems pretty accurate which is a good thing because I was overestimating the calories I was burning in Zumba and Kickboxing classes BIG TIME!

Alright, so I think I've crammed about two weeks worth of missed entries into this post. Besides that minor setback that weekend, I'm still pushing forward. I'm seeing the scale move up and then down and I think I'm seeing results with the tape measure (I say I think because I seem to never measure the same part of my waist twice because I have no idea exactly where it is!). As of today, I am ONE pound away from my FIRST TEN POUNDS lost and I am PUMPED!

I've got more to say and talk about with thoughts all over the place, but I think I'll probably stop right here. I need to save some of this energy for Zuuuuumbaaaa!!! I'll be there with my new shoes on ready to go!

Thanks for checking in with me!